About me
My name is Csilla and I created the UpGuide Tarot website. I live in the Netherlands with my creative husband and two overcurious and fearless daughters. One of them is more curious, the other one is more fearless.
Once upon a time I was software engineer. I did write code. What I truly enjoy however is the beautiful and complex world of Tarot. I believe it is more of a psychological tool, but of course we can use it for taking a glimpse into the possibilities of the future too.
I love big leafy plants. The bigger the leaf, the more I love them.
I love books. The smell of the paper, the artwork on the cover, and all the stories and knowledge they hold inside of them.
I also love snow and mountains. Late night walks in the warm summer evenings. Scuba diving while beautiful sea creatures swim around me. I also have a telescope, because of course I do love the night sky and all of its beauty and mysteries.
I like to eat good food, to cook and bake, but lately I didn’t have the possibility to do it out of passion.
Sometimes I draw because it helps me clear my mind and connect to myself.
I am also constantly working on keeping my guards down.
I am driven by connection. Connection to people, nature, animals, and of course to Tarot and oracle cards. I love to create, sometimes all by myself, sometimes in collaboration. Each has its own beauty.
I can simply not be in the shallow. I am a deep thinker, a deep feeler, a curious learner, and a seeker of meanings. I am also a thorough planner who always wants to see the big picture.
How it started
My first encounter with Tarot was in 2004. I went to see three tarot readers because I was curious and very skeptical, and I really did not resonate with two of them. The third however made me fall in love with a gorgeous and complex Tarot deck and a few days later I bought my very first deck which I still use. There were times in my life when I put down the Tarot deck and did not pick it up for a longer period of time. We all have lessons to learn, feelings to feel, and things to experience while we transform ourselves. But I always got back to my beloved cards and at one point I felt I am ready to deep dive into the word of symbols, numerology, archetypes, mythology, and all things related to the Tarot. I am still learning, and I think I always will.
What I strive to do
Part of my purpose is to assist people to connect with their inner world and to be able to see themselves without judgement or comparison. To see what truly matters. To value and accept all the little perfect and imperfect pieces of the self which makes us human. That is why I prefer "coaching-style Tarot readings", and based on my experience, it is often surprisigly transformative. I consider myself a sensitive and straightforward Tarot Advisor.
When we want to look out of ourselves and have a better understand of our relationships and life in general, Tarot is a great tool to use. At the same time it is perfect to connect with our inner life, our true feelings and desires, and intuition.
What about the future? I do believe that we have certain trajectories in our lives and we can choose to experience one or the other – that’s where Tarot cards and looking into future possibilities come in. Tarot cards can map out these trajectories so we can choose what is best for us. I believe it works in terms of synchronicity, possibilities and manifestation.
We are most definitely able to change our lives at any moment. If you are here to do so, I'd be honored to help you on your journey. Let's begin then!